That very day...

That very day, you left an impact in my heart, in my mind...

That very day, you screamed, you shouted, that left me speechless.

That very day, it was the first time I was so scared. I was very afraid. I saw an image of my past, my image of you. Finally, I understood the feeling, the feeling of being depressed, the feeling of being stabbed in the heart, the feeling of hurt. It just hurts so much.

I cant control. My tears keep rolling down while waiting to see you, my heart keep pounding like crazy, afraid I can never see you again. I prayed to god that you are safe, I prayed to hell, to the demons and devils to take me away if I couldnt see you again. I did not pray to heaven because I did not want to see you there. Regrets filled up my mind.

I was also filled with so much anger. I cant vent it out. All I can do was to think of venting it out when I see you.

And when I see the first sight of you, the hurt and sorrows from your eyes staring at me, and I could not bring myself to scold you, but only to stare at you like a fool, blaming myself for making you like this. Am I a loser or what?

I walked away. I dont even want to come back to you anymore. Because I couldnt bring myself to see you in such a state again. I dont want to see your sadness. I dont want to see you feeling so miserable. I'm afraid I couldnt control myself. I dont want to cry like a little girl anymore. But your grip was forceful; I couldnt resist staying, and I couldnt resist crying.

Tears and tears. They are just like raindrops from the dark clouds. The more you want it to stop, the more it couldnt and to pour even more.

You werent there to hug me. Just like I wasnt there for you when you are hurt. I wanted your touch, your embrace, but it was just cold air sweeping across my skin.

When finally I felt your arms hugging me tightly, I just cried like a little lost girl that has found her mother. I felt your embrace once again. I missed you so badly. I ignored how ugly I looked, how silly I was; the only thing I want to know is you are still there. Your presence, your touch meant so much to me at that moment. Why couldnt you just hold on to me earlier on?

It still took me time to say sorry to you. I couldnt stop crying and tearing. I cant control myself. I am hurt. It was too painful for me to handle.

Up till now, I couldnt bring myself to forget what happened that very day. When I see the impact you made both physically and mentally, I couldnt help but seeing the images flashing through my mind. I couldnt help but to feel the sharp pain in my heart. I couldnt help but to tear. I couldnt help... Those impact you made were too deep. I am affected, deeply affected.

Will things ever be the same again? Will time heal everything?

Hah, I can be a script writer liao.